I get called vindictive A LOT. Not to say that I don't do vindictive things, but usually when people are labeling me as such, it's not correct.
The first time it sounded just wrong. The real proof got eaten by my best friend's dog (for real) or misplaced, but the story went something like: I kissed the boy she liked while I was drunk... Drunk not being the excuse, because it was a shitty thing to do either way...on Halloween a few years ago. So after using my car on Monday and again on Tuesday to get to the train station to buy records, she shoves the $10 she owes me in my coat pocket and doesn't return my calls for 2 days, which involves not showing up to pick me up for school, because every Tuesday and Thursday, we'd get breakfast before class.
So I walk to school (not a horrible imposition... took less than 10 minutes when I was rocking to Kanye on the way up). When I get to breakfast, I eat with my Shute, see her in class and ask if she still intends to be at our series of weekend plans. The short answer was no and I can't accurately convey the attitude that went with it, but I knew it was done already.
I go to work and then to Ter's house for movie night. Broad had sent her a text about how I'd crossed a line and she couldn't put up with me anymore. The next day I went to her house and took my stuff (we lived together for 4 months and weren't on bad terms when I physically moved, just the month preceding it). I didn't take anything that wasn't mine and, in fact, left some stuff that was mine there. And four days later, there's a note on my car. The two important things about the note were that she called me a "vindictive cunt" for going into the house and getting my stuff (which was piled near the door) because she intended to talk to me and second, that it was written on the back of a pencil drawing of the two of us I'd given her for her birthday that year...that she had erased her face from and written in her place, "So you can draw in whoever you dupe into being your friend next."
This is an appropriate place for the definition of vindictive. According to Dictionary.com, vindictive has two meanings:
vin·dic·tive
1. Disposed to seek revenge; revengeful.
2. Marked by or resulting from a desire to hurt; spiteful.
OK. The next time wasn't as horrendous, just dumb and doesn't need much explanation--just that I got suddenly dropped by a guy because he had stopped taking his antidepressants (via im)and I was vindictive for something like calling him.
But I did do something vindictive lately. I convinced Tara's Boyfriend to pee on the car door handle of this kid he wanted to fight.
I guess it was more merciful than having his teeth put out.
And now the being the bigger person half...
This is written about me. I'm not sure where it came from, but the answers to broad's questions were because you dry hump my boyfriend everytime we see you and because I've known with your "fiance" for about a decade (I'm so old). AnI i told her in an email. Mostly because Stewart wouldn't give me her number to call her and won't let me just show up at her work to tell her. It was straightforward and transparent. AnI i got a reply that I'm fairly certain is very common for a fifteen year old. It was signed "~never again~" and then she posted another journal about it. And in my head, I'm thinking, bitch, you hope never.
And that summarizes my newest internet drama and a brief history of why I think fighting on LJ, etc, is retarded.
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